Sometimes, you have to put these things out for others so that they can speak to your soul. I haven’t written in awhile because I have been, well, dealing with stuff. I have been focused on getting out of bed each day, trying to see the good in the day, being thankful for what God has provided for me & my family. I have been hoping & praying each day that functioning gets easier, that this mess moves on, moves out of our lives & by golly, it had better be quick! (I’m not a patient person by any stretch of the imagination! It’s just not who I am!) But, I find myself stuck. I’m stuck in the mess that I call life, my life. I cry, I get angry, I justify, I fill my time but in all of this, I have felt very distant from God. Oh sure, my village of people that I am blessed to have in my life have pointed me to God, I have even pointed my daughter to God…all for me to try to do this new life on my own. I have gone to the cross & talked with God, bargained with Him, asked for forgiveness & put my burdens down at the cross…only to pick them up before I even say AMEN! It’s what I do…
So, I share with you tonight the love of Christ…so it can speak to my soul. I share with you tonight the Survivor’s creed…so it can speak to my soul. I share with you scripture…so it can speak to my soul. So my heart can see it, read it again and again & tell others about it and then…hopefully start healing.
Let me be honest…I don’t have any answers! None, zero, nada! NO ANSWERS to why I am where I am, when I will become unstuck or how I will become unstuck. What I do know is that when I am true to myself & turn to God, when I remember that God has sought me out, He has chosen ME even before he made the world…when I remember these truths, I am better. I am still stuck, but better. These are the truths that I must remember through the tears, through the heartache, through the questions, through the weary nights. When I look back at where I have been to where I am…I see growth, I see a new person in Christ. No, I’m not perfect, I’m still stuck & can be angry & resentful & full of pain…yes, I am human. But, in Christ, I am new again. I know that, no matter what happens, I am a child of the One True King and that I will survive this mess that is my life.
I saw this Survivor’s Creed by Max Lucado on a Bible Study I was watching. It was like a breath of fresh air to see this, to see the words in writing. It was calming. So, I am sharing. I am sharing so that, no matter what, if you are going through “stuff”, you have some reassurance, something in front of you to remind you of who you are and whose you are! And yes, I am sharing this for me, for my soul too!
“Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and with out fault in his eyes.” Ephesians 1: 4
“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun.” 2 Corhinthians 5: 17
“That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.” 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18
For The Bible Tells Me So